Thank you for your prayers for the upcoming trip to France and Rome. I leave September 9^th and will be back October 2^nd. As you know in the past, the warfare for these trips to Europe has been intense. I need people to stand in prayer and I am grateful for those of you who commit to do that.

 

I do have some big financial needs but it has never hindered God before and I expect this time He is well able to meet this need as well. If the Lord is dealing with you to be a part of the financial support for this trip please let me know.

 

This trip to Ohio was awesome. It was much easier to fly than drive and there seemed to be less attacks that way. So I was grateful to be able to fly. Though there still were some serious attacks. In Ohio we had a series of meetings that were intense. The Lord would deal out pages and pages of revelation in the morning and I would minister it in the evenings most of the time. This Church has hooked up with me in a very special way and even ordained me and licensed me (even though I am already ordained) so I would be ordained by a church that was willing to stand with me 100%. This was a very special time for me.

 

Ministry time was different every evening. The Lord did awesome things. I will just give a couple of examples. One young man came from Columbus, Ohio. I told him that he was not walking with the Lord at this time and he said that was right. I told him that he had chest pains and trouble breathing and then I further described the problem. I saw a valve on the heart that was twisted and caused the blood to backwash into the heart, for some reason this caused not only heart trouble but also caused fluid to build up in the lungs. [I found out later that indeed the type of heart valve problem I described would cause fluid to build up in the lungs just as the Lord showed me.]

 

The Lord began to show me many things about this young man and some of them were not good but he was very honest and admitted they were true. He was ready to be saved, filled with the Holy Spirit and immediately began to speak in tongues. The Lord miraculously healed him and he left a very happy young man.

 

On one evening the Love of the Father God was there very strong. I felt like I was hugging everyone and just wanted to pour the love of God on all of them. Finally the Lord said for me to have the people come up one at a time and just hug them for Him. I had two others that I knew I could trust to help me. It was intense. One larger woman came up and I held her but I could tell she couldn’t cry and receive the release she needed. She just had too many walls and hindrances. So the Lord helped me share the burden with her, so that I was feeling what she felt. Soon I began to sob uncontrollably releasing her pain for her and she received her break through. She came to me later in shock, “You cried for me.” She said. “Yes.” I replied. “No I could feel it you were actually crying my tears for me because I just couldn’t’ do it.” She said. “Yes.” I said, “That is the Love of God. I would never have been able to do that otherwise.” She was so touched by the Love of God that was manifested to her that she would never forget it. That is an important life changing time.

 

So we had some awesome meetings and we were also able to work on the book I am writing. I am in the final editing stage putting in the changes and corrections they found in editing it for me. We still need a publisher. Not someone you pay to print a few copies but some one who will publish and distribute it. If you know of anyone like that let me know.

 

I mentioned that this was time of revelations and I feel the Lord would have me share one of those revelations with you. I want to encourage you to find yourself in this vision. You may see yourself in several places and seek the Lord to help you line up with His pattern and plan for your life. After I shared this vision my dear beloved friend Jackie led us in prophetic intercession and on into repentance. It was life changing. I also saw myself in some of the things in the vision and felt the awesome touch of the Lord in repentance. It is a word from the Lord to His church. If you have any questions after reading it feel free to email me.

I want you to picture this city with me. The city I saw in the vision of the Lord. It has a big rectangular wall with the main gate at the front. Then inside that is a space and then another rectangular wall for the inner court and lastly the rectangular wall of the innermost court. Let’s look at the first section and the people who live there.

 

In the first section live the worker bees that live mostly in the natural realm. They are often outside the city working the fields. They have many friends without the city. There strength in the spirit is small. They live close to the exit and their hearts are often outside the gate with the fruit of the fields and the people they know who live outside. These are the ones who murmur and complain for the leeks and garlic of Egypt, not despising the bondage it will cost them. Chronic complainers always seeking what God will do for them but never abiding in or accessing the center, which is the place of abiding with Him.

 

But they have a service and are part of the plan of God as workers in the natural. These are often friends and family that we grieve over because they live at the gate, at the edge of the Kingdom. Give them a task and let them see the fruit of it and eat the fruit of their labors and they will at least remain in the Kingdom. If not as often happens they will grow restless and leave to find Egypt. Indeed many spend much of their time traveling lost in a labyrinth of trails to find the fruits of Egypt that will spice up their lives. These are promises that bring bondage. Then becoming discouraged with the journey, lost and frightened by the robbers, threatening animals (demons), and many hardships and never receiving their reward, they return like prodigal sons to the food and safety of the Father’s walled city.

 

Remember the prodigal son only returned because he needed food and shelter. Even though those were not good motives they got him to come home where he was safe. We all want to see our loved ones safe in heaven. Many of these people grow restless again and again and spend their lives wasted and unfruitful going back and forth seeking to satisfy their own appetites or recovering from the damage their appetites have caused. They see the walls of the Kingdom as confining and cannot see it otherwise. Strange how to them it is confinement but to others it is God’s loving protection.

 

They see it as restricting them from what they want to do with their lives and never fully allow the Shepherd of the sheep to own them. They go from Master to Master, as it serves their deceived view of life the most at that moment. May their final days be found in the true Master’s hand because only there can they be assured of eternal safety. Should their days end outside His Kingdom they will not find eternal safety. Such are the dangers of the lustful appetites that rule those who remain at this level.

 

The second section is the inner court of the City of the Kingdom. The people who live there go in and out and seem to feel content to be in the inner court with its brighter light but are often only content for the moment. Then I saw an odd sight. Mobs of people at the wall leading to the outer court, many with their hands on the wall; some pressing sore, intently blocking all else out, some with raised hands to God about the wall.

 

“Listen Little One.” The Lord said, “Listen deep.” One woman, who had her hands lifted high; was sorely pressed by the crowd but she ignored them. She earnestly with tears prayed to her beloved Savior. I listened as she prayed. “Lord I lift my hands up to You. Look at them. See how empty they are. Fill them with riches. I know you want me to have only the best. I am faithful and my prayer is with the greatest faith.” And she was praying with great faith but she could not see how her prayers made the Lord weep.

 

The enemy came and placed two gold coins in her hand. She rejoiced for a moment but soon her hands were empty again. So she lifted them up again expecting them to instantly be filled as they were before. Had God not shown His willingness and ability to do so by honoring her prayers before? But when the money did not come she went into a deep depression that clouded her. She wept bitter against the Lord saying, I thought you loved me. If you really loved me you will fill my hands now. When that didn’t happen she felt rejected and abandoned by God, hopeless. It was unfair.

 

The attitudes of her heart slapped the Lord and spit in His face, saying like Zipporah did to Moses, you are not a good husband to me. So she pressed and cried out in great faith against the Lord until the demon put two more coins in her hand. Thus began the viscous cycle of lack and faith, seeking only prosperity but not seeking the Lord Himself. Whether she had some or whether she had none, she sought more demanding in faith the reward of her great faith, prosperity. Never realizing she was always seeking money, which is a form of worship and accusing the Lord in her heart; even some times boldly to His face, feeling justified by her lack, her suffering and her trouble.

 

The Lord said, “She represents the enemy within My walls in My name. For where is the difference in her and the enemy demanding in strength what ‘she wants’ when and how she wants it (to prove I love her as I should) or she will smite Me with her words and accuse Me in her heart for My faithlessness and indifference. She is close enough to strike Me well. Prosperity.”

 

There were multitudes upon multitudes of people pushing sore to reach the wall. Teachers filling their hearts with how to press through and touch the wall by forcing the hand of God and by using God’s true principal of faith. But because faith is a true principal it can work with or without the Lord.

 

There was another massive crowd, though not quite as big. They pressed against the inner wall but in the same manner as the people who had pressed against the outer wall. Instead of money they were demanding power, acclaim and recognition, proof of their greatness in Jesus’ name. Because they pressed in faith, that true principal that works regardless, they received but most only a little though some received much. They were naughty children demanding and throwing tantrums for their own way and desires by fasting or suffering for it in various ways. They did receive some but with every measure of power came a mixture of deception but because of their great power people believed them. Surely they are of God and thereby they deceived many.

 

The Lord spoke, “They are naughty self-seeking children who are now deceived and even the good truth I give them becomes distorted and mixed with a lie. How amazing that some of them are willing to sacrifice everything for My power. What a blessing they could be if they were only willing to sacrifice all for Me. I weep over them. They are lost treasures spreading convincing lies to My simple sheep just like the enemy does.” “None of the people in this courtyard are truly safe.” The Lord said, “For they have other gods like self, money, power, and to feel noble and full of faith and important. How sad.”

 

In the middle were a few on a journey seeking. They were disenchanted with the other two groups and wanted to press through them to the innermost court. They are left to do all of the real work in this large area and cannot leave it to press on. These other two groups, which are easily 90% of this section, are so intent on what they seek or showing off, that these 10%, with a bit of bitterness, are left to do 100% of the real work. They are always aware that they are not enough. They rise early and go to bed late for the Lord. 

 

Their hands and feet often bleed and they are weary to the core. Then the Lord spoke, “To them I look like a harsh Master. Many burn out and become sick inside overwhelmed by the workload, if I would just make the others do their share of the work or supernaturally enable them to do the work better and faster; perhaps if I gave them more strength or perhaps if they only needed less sleep. They didn’t realize they were treating Me just like a foolish Boss and continually accusing Me with their tiredness, spent and used up ‘for Me’.”

 

“Then what is the difference between them and the other two groups?” The Lord asked. “None. Their focus is the work or the people. They whine to Me in faith for the work but the work has become their god. It has led them into hurtful deceptions as though I had kept them from moving into the innermost court by leaving them in great need with too much work, like the Egyptians demanding more brick but giving no straw. The deceptions are the same. The focus is never God but ‘for’ God and full of silent accusations of the heart.”

 

I saw several stone wells in several locations through out this section. These stone wells were very deep in “the Rock” but very few drank from them because they were self absorbed with their own plans and desires. Many were dehydrated. But the water was sweet and clear. It would cause the fog of deception to lift off them. Instead of drinking pure water those who did drink it mixed it with Kool-Aid and flavored sweet drinks. They even pumped it to large plants that put out colas and energy drinks. In other words they disdained the simple sweet waters of the word but mixed it with their self-satisfying deceptions before they drank it. But the few who remained by the well and drank the pure water of the Word will soon transfer to the innermost court.

 

I saw many of the people in this second court bound by shackles and chains of bitterness, un-forgiveness and accusation against the Lord. They were focused only on self. They didn’t really ‘know Him’, though they would never admit it. Jesus turned to me and asked, “Will these go to heaven?” I thought surely they would. But the pure word says in Matthew 6:14-15 if we do not forgive we cannot be forgiven. If we are not forgiven can we go to heaven by the forgiveness payment of the Lord Jesus that He made for us or have we prevented Him from applying it to us by our own lack of forgiveness; especially if when our hidden secret bitterness and un-forgiveness is revealed it is against the Lord. The Lord did not answer and I did not push but the answer could not be good.

 

Then I more fully understood Matthew 7:21-23. Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?' And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!

 

Lawlessness is compromising, rebellion and self will. We cannot own our own lives, even the desires of our heart and truly belong to the Lord. Then I understood why so few in this section, who looked so awesome, would make it. [Even as the scripture above states they prophesied in the name of Jesus, cast out demons and did signs and wonders in His name. These were impressive Christians but they had no heart for God.] The foolish outer court was safer than this one in some ways. Very little good work was done in this second court, though there were many books and conferences, little lasting work was accomplished. It was a place of idols and deceptions.

 

Finally the Innermost Court. Everything would be wonderful here I was sure, at least I was praying that these people were really God seekers. How pretty the floor was starting with smooth simple sandy colored stone tile laid in a big square and then lines about 6 inches wide of white tile with dark blue blurred patterns and symbols that lined the inside of the first square forming a pattern, then another square of the simple stone inside of that and then a thinner square of a dark rose on white patterned tile, then simple tiles again, then a thin white tile with a dark yellow pattern inside of that and so it continued.

 

The patterns on the tiles disturbed me and the colors were not God colors. They were the darker colors usually used by the enemy. I heard the words, ‘only step on the simple stones of truth.’ The pattern on the dark blue sometimes looked like dragons and other oriental symbols. “What is this Lord?” I asked, “How could this possibly be in the innermost court?”

 

Every set of the colored tiles are here from the enemy as an opportunity to trap the seekers. It is permitted, because they must be tested to be pure, as Adam was tested by the constant presence of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. Many are drawn to these tiles because of their beauty and ancient look. They will only walk on the important looking tiles of dreams, visions, prophecy, angels and visitations. You have grieved over many who seek only these things and thereby took their eyes off Me and were overtaken by deception. Though they dwell in the innermost court and may even touch My face in worship, they have been deceived.

 

Many again lined the wall trying to obtain power, prosperity and the works of the second court with the visions of the innermost court. These were self-seeking leaders; trapped by the need to wow the people for fear that the people would leave them, just like King Saul in the Bible. Many who walked the thin square line of white patterned tile would walk the square line of tiles as though on a great journey walking around and around. Seeing different visions as they went made them think they had traveled far. These would not leave their path for they felt good about themselves, though often they wanted more.

 

Many turned sweet earnest faces pressing against invisible walls between their row of tiles and the next row of tiles, seeking more visions and knowledge. If they ever pressed the wall seeking only Jesus they would exit their trap. But many would then run back to it missing the ‘good feelings’ they have there, which surely must be from God. Indeed the lines came from many regions and religions. Some of them were visions, some prophecy, some knowledge and reason, another wisdom and another was being a sage, these felt very justified in their pride.

 

Where are the people who were on the true stones? Few of them were leaders, most were intercessors or praying women who would walk the square of their assignment until they learned that level well and the Lord told them to walk on to the next row of true stones to learn it too. [So few people and especially so few men surprised me. Though I was not there to argue but just to document. I couldn’t help but think of the parable of the sower; some seed fell by the wayside, some on stony ground, some among the thorns but very little on good ground and of that some was 30 fold, some 60 fold but how few then was left to be 100 fold.]

 

These few who followed faithfully followed the Holy Spirit and fought away the discontentment of lack of knowledge, power, funds, hands on workers, etc. Seeking to be content with what God had assigned for that moment, trusting His wisdom and His timing. They always made time to seek His face. As the lines tile went closer to the center there was more of the deceptive tile and less of the simple tile of truth. It was the test of loving God and His truth above self and what others have or say we should have.

 

A large area in the center of this innermost court that was probably 10’ by 10’ was almost all tile of various colors and patterns. It was almost impossible to walk so perfectly that you never stepped on the tile. The true seeker of God would repent quickly if they stepped onto the false tile and step onto the next small stone right away. At this stage more and more were weeded out. These were often those who started right but grew weary in the way. To my dismay the center of the floor that I had long traveled toward was not pure stone but was a mixture of colored tiles. But the Lord said step on it anyway.

 

I felt like Peter in Acts 10:14 saying not so Lord but I have never eaten anything common or unclean… but nevertheless at your word I will. I realized how my trust even when I couldn’t see and my willingness to be corrected had grown along the way. These two attributes were necessary to continue. Because I only wanted to seek Him I could go on. But the center tile was a final illusion of the enemy as a last effort to deceive and trap, for in the center was a square of simple stone big enough to stand on. The enemy had made it look like the false tile but when I stepped on it that illusion disappeared.

 

The Lord bid me stand there because great changes must take place in order to enter the next area, which I couldn’t see. The atmosphere was so different it would be like trying to breath underwater, if I did not allow my atmosphere and nature to first be changed. I stood there a long time like a person going back and forth from surgery to recovery and then back again to surgery again and again.

 

A sound filled me with heavenly worship music and a sound of a constant threat left me. I opened my eyes in a great light and I wept for I knew this was the home I had searched for where Jesus lived and all my heart longed for this. I went through many rooms and many surgeries cutting the darkness and its world nature away but always Jesus was there by my side. The journey on from here is long but so enjoyable, for on this journey I will learn His ways and adapt to Him and abide in Him. I saw no other humans but many angels and spirit creatures that did their job to help me and I let them. I appreciate them without seeking them; I must only seek Jesus.

 

Though I saw no other humans I knew there were some here and there, far spread out. They had prepared for many but had so few. More would come. The tabernacle below was the place to walk through yourself and then on into Him but many became trapped in their desires and bitterness along the way. I knew my strength was often so weak and I wept with gratitude at the Lord’s faithfulness that saw me through. Now and only now the true journey begins that we were made for. And though it took me a long time, the closer we come to the End the more grace and speed will be given.

 

Amen